Reminds me of the that day, I still remembered. I was happy and cheerful. That day was 2 weeks ago, but it feel like it's been months ago. I have always been asking myself the same question. What is my real feelings for him? What kind of love I had loved him? Does those love in movies exist? Does my love for him is true? Right now, I don't want to continue my life. Its felt soo pain to think about it. I just want to lay down and cry. Many people cared for me, I appriciate it. It just that loving someone and letting him go, it feels like throwing my life away. It maybe my first love but it maybe the only love I felt soo real. I felt for him more than anything else in my life. I know I'm still young but I know what I want in my life. Him. But for his happiness, it's enough for me.