I couldn't think forward.. Only smile with tears for him. Thinking that if he's close to me... The one that I love, the one I trust. The way he gave a hand to me.... The way he made me feel, stop thinking forward and do what you like with no worries.. I loved him the same as before, but I don't know myself anymore. A smile and laughter that had been force. My heart just couldn't rest, I can't sleep peacefully.... Only thoughts that is blank....