I thought that I was strong enought to handle it yet my body couldnt take it anymore. I dont know Im geting sick of whatever but I still couldnt stop thinking the foolish things I said to people. Expescially to everyone. Sometimes I said stupidly or abit harsh. I really tried my best to think before what I said. It's really emberess thinking of what I've said in the past when it doesnt felt like me. Sometimes I wish I could turn back the time. I know some people understand me even I've said the wrong things but some who doesnt know me felt like I hate them. ARHhhh.... Soo emberessing. I only could think of it but I don't know why I couldnt change it. Time passes slowly, I lost myself gratuately. I'm sorry if I treated someone weirdly, harsh or stupidly. I really din't mean it.