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Saturday, October 11Y
Am I silly enough to laught at myself?

I'm just not real. I'm just words behind a person screen yet others are same to me. Everyday, I would see myself how stupid am I to take it that serious. So, I left that place, I just wish I would never return and hope I would laugh at it in the future.

Here it goes:
Since I left there, I wish I would not turn back but sometimes I do dream I would. Even for just for awhile, I would like to just dream about it. Hahah… I’m just a dreamer dreaming something ridicules and stupid. I have to wake up from there to move to a new place because dreaming is something unreal. It only works in ones mind and not others.

Friends in the past, I still remember, I still can’t forget. They been there for me even though I’m just giving stress to them but they stood by me as I would do to them. Even it’s just words but they understood me. Just words, a little smile and a cheer would brighten up my day. Sometimes I do thank them all the little things they have said to me because it leads to something big to my real life.

Even I’m trying to avoid the past but I still do carry the things I have learned and value it. It’s so much that I couldn’t list it out or even explains it in words. Sometimes I wish I could just go back there once more to say thanks for the experience but I still can’t do tat yet. So, I still need to keep going till I reach a point which I could turn back laughing at my past.

Something just happen in fantasy, nobody would believe in me. Even my friends or family, it’s just something that they would laugh at me. I still can’t say I’m stupid or anything because it becomes part of my life already. I couldn’t tell anyone about it but to put it into words to show how I really felt. It is secret I couldn’t tell anyone because it isn’t real at all…

Sometimes we have to wake up even though we don’t want to. It would not help if you only stick your mind in the past and not letting it go. Things would never change even though you just sit there. Just moving on and accept that things have changed. The world change and we just have to follow it.

ends at 10/11/2008 07:20:00 AM