Had a fantastic feast with red wine. Strawberries and white wine for dessert. My bro cook to replace for Christmas eve and New Years eve. By the way, I love his toast. He said "Thanks to my family that giving me support and the money to send me to a good school that I was able to love. And my dad for choosing the right course for me." It was quite stupid of me saying that I was amaze. The reason why I do cause all I think was myself. I always think why nobody ever liked me? Why am I the worse among my family? Will anyone like me? I always ask but I never do anything. All I think was myself. I never thought of my family, they gave me soo much that I couldn't return them any. Sometimes I cried cause regreting I din't do my best for them. I cried when my parents talk to me, trying to tell me to be a better person but still I couldn't control my tears. I feel sad because I disappointed them. I may want some love but its not the right time for me now. Love from my family is enough for me to go so far. Fate will lead me to the person that would love me as much as I return it...

Christmas, passed just like that. Just like the normal other days. My parents went to work as if its normal. Haiz, we don't celebrate Christmas like we used to. Well, actually I got used to it. I would spend my days at home doing stupid things. Lol. Eventhough we don't celebrate anymore but I still would pray and wish before I went to bed like I used to every year. Hope that santa would hear it. Lol, I know it sounds childish but sometimes we just have to imagine something that isin't there. To makes us feel better eventhough it's just for awhile. No harm doing it ^^ This year was sorta different. Well, my dad's best friend came over with his family celebrating chritmas eve. Eating satay, fried sotong, and bbq. -.-" omg, its like Malaysian style of celebrating it. Atless I get to drink wine... ^^ omg, that day the wine was super fantasticly NICE!!!! <3 Hmm... well, soo many things happend to me, sometimes I lost track of it and now Christmas is over...

On my way to a country which I never go before. A land soo far from mine, Australia was my destination for my year end holiday! I was sorta excited to gave this chance to visit there. About my traveling, its a living hell!! All I did was vomit till my last breath was gone. That's what I get when I traveled none stop for 10 hours. It was really a pain in the ass. Ouch! But still, I have to admite that it really pays off... I fall in love!! The view is more than you could even imagin in your whole life. Even in the plane, just staring out the window watching the sun slowly climb up from that far away cloud. It's just lovely. Those clouds, makes you think of your soft pillow back home...

Well, my first time to a western country. All I could say that it was so different from Asian countries. It's summer here yet it is still so cooling. I enjoyed the breeze when I first came out from the airport. As it blew right at my face, makes my cheek turns red. It was fun for awhile but then I still need to warm myself by rubbing my both hands. My first day goes with meeting with my grandfather's cousin for the first time as far as I could remember. My dad said that I did met her before but it was when I was only 3 years old. To tell you a secret, she's a fortune teller! My dad told stories about her fortune telling. At first I dint belive but now I do... The way she talks to me like she knows everything about me. She told my dad about me and my other siblings. O___O surprisingly its true... Hah. She gets phone call from all around the world to ask her about their fortune. There are some from HK, Msia, Sg and Indonesia, that's cause I heard all of them while she's talking on phone. LOL..

The rest of my holiday was fun. My family rented a car n drove all the way from Melbourne to the "Twelve Apostles". It was about 7 hours drive but we had so much fun. Its not about reaching there though. Its about spending time with my family and the drive to our destination. We stop for food and eat n eat n eat... Then we watch the view and kept on traveling. We stopped by the beach n rested awhile and then continue. It was soo much fun. Somehow I still cant belive that I'm at Australia. Its just too fantastic... The view and all that. It's like u r in a book and someone is reading it. That is in someone's imagination...